A Warning

Yesterday I opened my eJournal and was greeted by a note from Microsoft:

There are too many spelling or grammatical errors in “Journal_2011″ to continue displaying them. To check the spelling and grammar of this document, choose Spelling and Grammar form the Tools menu.

I thought that was a bit harsh. It’s a Journal! I didn’t ask for a stealth proofreader. It’s for my eyes only, a place where I ramble.  I’ll admit, it’s a long document, over 127,000 words. You read that right. Theoretically, I could have written another novel for all the whining, moaning, despairing, exclaiming, analyzing, criticizing, describing, complaining, self-reassuring, and vowing I did in that document in the course of a year.

Tomorrow I’ll open a fresh Microsoft Word document: Journal_2012. I’ll try to watch the run-on sentences this year, Microsoft.

If you’re in the mood for one last (sort of) holiday story, check out my flash fiction piece: The Sword of Vengeance

 

 

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The Holiday Dash & the Origin of Suburbia

For some reason, my employer has a frenzy of extra activity in November and December, which makes for a challenging “holiday” season as there is really no “holiday” about it.

This makes the whole preparation thing feel like a mad dash to the finish line, touch and go whether there will be any gifts, a minimalist approach to decorating, and no baking whatsoever. Of course, I’m not fond of baking, so that’s probably a thinly veiled excuse.

This year, the holiday dash was intensified by my plan to release the third novella in the Madison Keith series. There I was, on Christmas Eve, exhausted, but relieved to see my “holiday-themed” novella make it into the holiday at the 11th hour, a few hours before my parents and neighbor arrived for dinner.

In Unholy Child, a proposed child care center enflames hidden prejudices at the church where Madison is the administrative assistant. You can read a bit more here. I had planned to blog about Unholy Child on Christmas Day because the story takes place in the weeks before Christmas. That didn’t quite happen. Okay, actually I planned to publish it in mid-December, but that didn’t quite happen either.

As it turns out, December 29 is a perfect day to announce my latest novella because one year ago today I released my first novel, signing on to become an Indie Author. It’s been a roller coaster year filled with some of the greatest thrills and lowest moments of my life as a writer. My plan for 2012 is less marketing, less flitting around the virtual world, and more writing.

But the holidays aren’t quite over yet, so a belated Happy Holidays! After the dash, I  had three glorious days to relax … and start the next novel, but for me, that’s relaxing. I hope your holiday was filled with all the people, events, and food you enjoy.

And here’s a final, completely unrelated tidbit: The idea of suburbia is apparently quite old. The first recorded use of the term suburb was by John Wycliffe – subarbis – in 1380. You can find that info and more about the origin of the word at Wikipedia.

I discovered that fact this morning because I’ve had an idea knocking around in my head since April 23, 2009, when I helped with environmental restoration as part of my company’s “volunteer” week. (Yes, our VP scheduled time for us to “volunteer” during business hours.) A forest service employee gave us instructions on which weeds to pull so we could remove predatory plants and protect endangered California flora. While we worked, he entertained us with the history of the area.

I became so obsessed with a few imagined characters who sprang to life, that I briefly considered abandoning the novel I was working on at the time — The Demise of the Soccer Moms, so obsessed that I dragged my husband on a half-day research trip a few weeks later. Because the novel would be set in the late 1800s (well, I have to do more research, either late 1800s or early 1900s), I finally got a grip and shoved it aside. After all, I write contemporary fiction. When the setting came to mind from time to time, I’d remind myself that it wasn’t Suburban Noir. Recently, one of the characters resurfaced with greater intensity and it occurred to me that perhaps it does fit. If it doesn’t fit, I’ll make it fit, dammit! (Thus a search of Wikipedia for the origin of suburbia.)

If Noir fiction focuses on the “victims, suspects, or perpetrators of crime“, and if the concept of suburbia existed long before the 1800s … well, why not? And if I don’t write the stories that drive me to obsession, how blandly suburban is that?

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How long does it take to write a novel?

How long does it take to write a novel?

On my pathologically private post a few days ago, a commenter asked: How long does it take you to write a novel?

My response was: That’s a loaded question because it all depends on how much I actually write during my writing time! My plan for novel #3 is about 10 months, although Buried By Debt took 14 months. The Demise of the Soccer Moms took almost six years, but that’s another story.

Despite the fact that I spend hours a month analyzing this question as I record my constantly evolving writing schedule in spreadsheets and look for ways to streamline the process (thereby eliminating a smidgen of the re-write frustration), the question kept me thinking over night and gripped my mind during my morning walk today. I finally decided blogging about it was the only way to sort through my thoughts. So get ready for a brain dump, in danger of running as long as a short short story, but I’ll try to use some self-restraint.

I analyze this to death because I maintain one spreadsheet for my overall writing schedule, marketing activities, to-do list etc., as well as a spreadsheet for each novel and novella. I know that’s neurotic in the extreme, but it helps. It really does. I can see 30-60 days at a glance, I can track my word count, see the total against the target, and adjust. For me, it’s the only way to keep a steady commitment.

I’m a firm believer in “butt in chair” as a key component of being a writer. It’s not all Muses and flow. It’s also writing shitty first drafts and murdering your darlings. It’s remembering that diamonds come out of unremarkable rock formations and mushrooms grow in … I guess they grow in the shitty first draft. (Although Anne Lamott coined the term, “shitty first draft”, it comes from Hemmingway’s comment that the first draft is always “shit”.) It’s tedious things like tracking word counts or page counts and editing the same passage seven times and reading out loud to catch all the rough spots. By tracking my word counts, constantly analyzing whether I’m on or off track, I get the indescribable thrill of watching the gradual, steady emergence of completed stories, novellas, and novels.

There are three factors that contribute to the length of time required to write a novel: Fear. Typing Speed. Simmering.

Fear. I believe “writer’s block” (which I don’t actually believe in) is fear. I believe tweeting and surfing and napping and eating and house cleaning and temper tantrums and moping – the things that hinder my daily writing goals – are all rooted in fear. In fact, my obsessive spreadsheet tracking has also been known to hinder my actual writing.

For me, it’s the fear of not writing well. I know how to write. I know all the tricks to get the words flowing when I hit a pause: free write, bring a fox into the scene, ask what the character is thinking right now, writing the most ridiculous thing imaginable, etc. But it’s hard to do those things because the result may be poor writing. They might be flat, boring, trite, and a host of other things that terrify me. And poor writing has to be re-written, and poor writing stirs up the inner critic who then introduces further pauses. The only way I know to combat this is to push through. Keep writing crap. For me, that’s all that works. But I fail to do what I know. Every. Single. Day.

So fear introduces more time into the “writing of a novel” because there is so much writing not happening. My first published novel, The Demise of the Soccer Moms, took almost six years. Was I writing that novel every day for six years? Absolutely not. In fact I wrote two other novels during those six years. I was derailed by fear and critique groups and a lack of confidence (fear) in my voice. I’ve gotten past a lot of that. I don’t think it will ever take me “six years” to write a novel again. But never say never.

Still, that fear of not meeting my vision for a novel slows the process. The more my confidence in my voice grows, the less time it takes to write because … surprise, I’m actually writing when I sit down to write!

Typing Speed. Yes, I think this plays into it. Thanks to my parents, I took a touch-typing class in high school, for which I’m eternally grateful. I’ve spent most of my years in my day job on a keyboard … typing hundreds of emails a week, creating marketing slides, editing white papers [yes, I have repetitive stress damage and have to wear nylon hand support fingerless gloves -- they're black, very gothic looking ;) ]. I type very fast, and when I’m in the flow, I can easily write 500 words in fifteen minutes. That means I can set a goal of 2000 words or approximately 5-7 pages for every one-hour writing session. How-Ever … I’m not always in the flow, and if I set that as my target, I’ll have constant spreadsheet anxiety. My goal is 1500 words an hour. I frequently miss that, but I often achieve it, and a bit more.

I write for two hours a day on weekdays and more on the weekends. That’s over a million words a year. (Although my editing process is slower.) So theoretically, I could write five drafts of two novels every year. My ultimate goal is to write two novels a year. I’m not there yet, see: Fear.

The beauty of NaNoWriMo is that it addresses both Fear and Typing Speed. It forces you to write fast, push through the resistance and focus on hitting a word count. This process helps turn off the inner critic and the result is a nice garden of mushrooms.

I wrote my second published novel, Buried By Debt, during NaNoWriMo 2009. I wrote more than the requisite 50,000 words and ended up with about 2/3 of a novel. It took me FOUR months to write the final 30,000 words of the first draft. Then, in thinking of a title that had a bit more punch than the working title – Debt – I got an idea for a new direction and had to toss about 75% of the novel for the second draft. Ultimately, that novel took me about fourteen months.

Simmering. My next  novel will be The Suburban Abyss. The idea for the novel came to me last summer. I have two characters vaguely sketched and the ghost of a third (not a real ghost[!] just a shadow of a character who has yet to emerge).

Today on my walk, as I do every Saturday, I passed the construction site that will be part of the setting. I saw a sign that read – Neighborhood Disturbance Manager – and provided a phone number and email address. I’m a sucker for jobs that sound, well, fluffy. I start wondering what that person’s salary is, what they actually do. This NDM will most likely appear in the novel.

So do I count my photographs of the construction site, my half-formed characters, and my Neighborhood Disturbance Manager as time spent “writing my novel”? Not really. I don’t plan to start writing this novel until December 26. But there’s lots going on. (Notice the mushrooms simmering in the pot! Maybe the Neighborhood Disturbance Manager is one of them, maybe not.)

As I’ve blogged about before, I use my walks to work out writing problems. The Muse comes with me, and there have been times when I haven’t gone two blocks before she whispers in my ear and plot point or character inconsistency that’s plagued me for days works itself out. The more I’ve developed writing habits, the more I’m taking advantage of this phenomenon. I pose writing questions to myself when I’m blow drying my hair or watering my plants. Basically I’ve learned to better use this simmering time so that I can “control” it to some extent, which reduces the amount of “time it takes to write a novel”.

I plan to publish The Suburban Abyss in October 2012. That’s a little over ten months of actual writing, re-writing, and editing. But I’m not “counting” all that simmering and note taking.

I’ve learned that part of becoming a writer is learning my own process, and the more I write, the more that process is refined and the less “time” it takes to write a novel. I’m now more aware, as I’m writing, when the story is dragging, when I’m “telling not showing” and all those other little things that can require significant rewrites. Eventually I’ll write a novel in two days. After all, if I type 70 words a minute and work twelve hours a day, I could write a novel in a weekend. Right?!! 70×60 minutes = 4200 words x 12 hours = 50,400 words x 2 days = 100,800 words. (Just kidding.)

I’m sure the comment on my post wasn’t looking for this vomit of the brain, but here it is. It takes me between six months and six years to write a novel.

If you’re a fiction writer, how long does it take you to write a novel? Or is that a loaded question?

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Suburban Noir Interview

Today I have the pleasure of being interviewed by David Sharp at A Wee Adventure. David writes flash fiction with a strong and intelligent voice, great twists, and a regular sprinkling of wry humor. His work has appeared in Shortbread Stories, Weaponizer, and McStorytellers. He’s working on a “steampunk novel for people who don’t do steampunk”, and recently published The Thief of Sleep and Other Tales. It’s a collection of eight short stories featuring time-travel, vengeful insomniacs, overly-ambitious Jehovah’s Witnesses, and the worst Facebook friend request ever. (If that last one doesn’t grab your interest, as it did mine, I’m sure the vengeful insomniacs will.)

In the interview I talk about what I’ve learned as an Indie Author, how I came to categorize my fiction as Suburban Noir, and how ghosts fit into a suburban noir world.

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A Pathologically Private Person

Today is my birthday. But because I’m a pathologically private person, I don’t even show my birthday on Facebook. I’m so extreme in my privacy, it took me weeks of agony to decide whether I would mention my birthday on my blog. I finally decided that since eleven is my lucky number, for obvious reasons, and today is 11.29.11 (2+9=11), I had no choice.

What a contradiction in terms. A pathologically private person who is also a fiction writer — the ultimate in self-revelation (reality TV aside).

Because this is a day brimming with elevens, and because it’s my birthday, I chose today to announce the publication of my second novel – Buried By Debt. (We won’t mention the fact that the target date, 11.11.11, swept past with no novel in sight.)

The seedling idea for Buried By Debt was that of a couple so full of pride, they’re driven to hide their precarious financial situation from their friends. There’s a fine line between being private and hiding the truth. Don’t think I’m now going to tell you where that line is, because I have no idea. And maybe it’s different for each person and each situation. All I know is that when Devon and Jenna tried to hide the truths of their lives, things didn’t go well. Buried By Debt — A Suburban Noir love story.

… And to top off all this lucky-month-lucky-year-eleven stuff, I woke yesterday to a Red Adept 5-star review of The Demise of the Soccer Moms. A big dollop of frosting on my pre-birthday cake.

 

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The Blue Lady

Apparently, a third of Americans believe in ghosts. (Some polls say more, some say less.) In Britain, 68% believe. To be honest, I’m not quite sure where I fall in this poll, and I don’t know if they included an “undecided” category. But that doesn’t mean I don’t love a good ghost story and am not intrigued by the possibility of their presence among us.

For quite a few years, my husband and I have made day and weekend trips to Half Moon Bay, California.

Perched on the cliff north of Half Moon Bay is a funky restaurant that’s said to be haunted.

The Moss Beach Distillery is an adobe building with a tile roof, built in the 20s. It was popular during prohibition because of its easy access to the coast as well as its inviting atmosphere. It has delicious food, a friendly bar, a dramatic view of the Pacific Ocean, and a ghost known as the Blue Lady.

There are several theories about the Blue Lady, but the one that’s been repeated most often tells the story of a beautiful young woman in the early 1930s. She fell in love with the man who played the piano in The Distillery’s bar. The young woman, always dressed in blue, was already married. Some say her husband was prone to violence and one night he tracked her down.

The piano player was assaulted on the beach below the restaurant, but survived. The lady in blue was murdered. As the story goes, she wanders the area around The Distillery, searching for her lover.

Whether you believe or not, stories of ghosts offer excitement and chills. I recently read an old ghost story – Smee, by Alfred M. Burrage. Even though the situation was somewhat contrived (a parlor game), the story left me squirming and not quite ready to go into a dark room.

For whatever reason, the Blue Lady seems to inspire fondness more than fear. She also inspired my second Madison Keith psychological suspense novella, Shallow Water.

The Distillery feels like home to me. In part, that’s because the place I feel most content is on the shore of the Pacific Ocean. There’s also my life-long love of Spanish architecture. (When I was ten, I desperately wanted to live in a California mission.) Add to that my devotion to eating, and it’s a perfect match. Their fried artichoke hearts are delicious, decadent bar food, and the dinner menu is loaded with fresh seafood. I love to sit at the bar and sip a perfectly mixed martini. And to be completely honest, I secretly hope to see the Blue Lady some day.

 

 

 

 

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Compulsive Collector

There’s not a single beach where I’ve walked along the shore and failed to return home with a pocket full of stones and seashells.

I have jars and “antique” glass containers on nearly every shelf in my house, half-filled with pebbles and pieces of shells. There’s something about a broken shell, smoothed by the water, a rock turned to a nearly perfectly oval disk, a satiny finish, that makes them seem like gems to me. In fact, my sister made me a simple pendant from a flat black stone and I prefer it over a diamond.

Yet after two previous visits to the Oregon coast, I was disappointed with myself for walking miles of flat beach staring at my feet, forgetting to gaze out at the raging, billowing, endlessly moving surf and the flat blue sea. 

This year, I promised, I’d hold hands with my best buddy and watch the waves rather than getting lost poking my toe in the sand to unearth yet another stone.

I decided I’d return home with only 11 stones (my lucky number). It turns out I have 16, but maybe overcoming my compulsive collecting for a few days will lead to overcoming my obsession with lucky numbers.

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